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Friday, September 10, 2004

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 22:30:29 GMT

What's up? I love having Fridays off. It really gives me the opportunity to be lazy for a day, and then have the weekend to get hw done. Today I went to a communications internship fair which was productive, then went grocery shopping (which was productive AND necessary) and worked my butt off @ the gym. Yay! Oh, I also did two loads of laundry and cleaned up my room. I am f-ing amazing. Way to work a Friday and make it worthwhile.

I wasn't feeling the Jewishness tonight, so we didn't go to Hillel, but tonight is a party for our friend Jason who is going on ESPN's reality show Dreamjob (Tuesday night peeps!). The winner gets a job with ESPN...Howww amazing! So though I didn't hit up Hillel, I'll see all my kids tonight at the fiesta.

I have MAD amounts of reading to do, so I think I may isolate myself in the library tomorrow and get it done. Chances are, though, I'll end up reading in my room, on my bed. Much more comfy.

Last night, Lizzie and I watched PCU...I have been sooo anti going-out lately...I know I shouldn't be this way, but I'm such a homebody now. I like chilling at home, in pjs...I don't like the effort of having to get ready and look cute, plus I've been really tired lately. Too bad I'm at the most alcoholic campus on the planet and nobody feels the same way.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 13:57:18 GMT

I haven't updated in FOREVER.....around a month, exactly...but now I'm back at school and will get back into the groove. This year, SENIOR year (ahh), I'm living in an off campus apartment w. my loves Nicole & Lizzie B (a sorority sister of mine). The apartment is about a two minute walk (literally) to my sorority house where I have a meal plan this semester (4 dinners, plus one free meal)...However, I'll prob be going a little more than that calls for. For lunches not at the house, I usually make turkey salads and heat up some vegetable soup or make Smart Ones microwavable meals.

I've been on a real health/exercise kick since I've been back. Annoyingly so..I've been watching what I eat pretty carefully (with the occasional deviation, but that is rare)and working out almost daily..plus I'm taking a dance aerobics class twice a week, and she's kinda Nazi about it..Sweet, I want a HOT bod by the end of this semester...I just want to develop life-long habits and maybe (ok, ok, DEFINITELY) lose a few pounds while I'm at it

Let's see...The party scene has been lame. Been to a couple stupid house parties. Been to the bars twice. I hate the specific bar so maybe that's why I feel the bar scene sucked. Went to our fav Jew frat party Friday. It's soo sad..We've grown up so much. When we were freshmen and sophomores, we LIVED for those parties. It was so cool to have all the older bros paying attention to us..now we're seniors, everyone is younger, and frat parties are so freaking lame, even if you're friends with the brothers (more on that in a sec). It's just a lot of freshmen girls getting drunk and acting like sluts. Haha, maybe that's why we liked it freshmen year. And, I feel like a lot of our friends in the house have since graduated or that things are just like a little different since London. Also, of course things have been weird with one of my friends. As of right now, we've been here about two weeks, and I just feel like our friendship is going down the drain. Not that we were ever like BFF or even super close, but whatever weird relationship we had, I just think it's slowly diminishing. We seem to have nothing in common anymore and nothing to talk about. I used to think we were SOO similar; now I think we are headed in completely opposite directions and are in really different places in life. I'll keep you updated..I shouldn't even be sad about it, based on the up and down history...it's just different and it's change and it is a little sad to me, to tell you the truth.

Besides that, it's good to see my bestests that didn't go abroad with us. Some things don't change, and those amazing relationships haven't. It's nice to pick up where we left off! The other night a bunch of us went to the mall for some eats @ American Cafe (delicious salad with chicken, strawberries & walnuts--such a J meal!), and then we went to see Garden State. It was sooo fun to reconnect. We also spent one night playing poker and gossiping at the boys' house, and another night activity was spent watching Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory on the quad. Of course my delinquents brought alcy! I still have been anti-alcy for the most part...I could care less if anybody else drinks it, I just haven't wanted it for myself. We'll see if I break down and get drunk. Not really counting on it, though. In the past 9 months, I've probably been drunk twice. Haha, I'm a loser!

Of course, things are also different because of stuff going on at home....However, let's just say everything will be ok..you just gotta fight and stay strong!

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 23:21:32 GMT

I LOVE BEING HOME! It is so absolutely amazing!

So relaxing and so wonderful. Highlights thus far: reading trashy, girly books (I'm on my 3rd already), sitting out by the pool w. Dana, Shelly, and Rory my first day back, hottubbing with Rory and Lindsey and some firefighter/EMT guys, lots of QT with Kari, good food, and hella exercising (I've lost weight already...) I'm on a roll, and I'm definitely gonna be lower than my target weight for the beginning of school. Makes me feel amazing because after all the eating in London and all the unhealthy behaviors , I'm finally doing it the right way again, and it's paying off

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 14:32:45 GMT

It's been a hard week. My grandmother died on Sunday after a lonnnnnnng battle. It's been really tough on my Dad because he's been flying back and forth from Denver to Massachusetts for the past few months.

Anyways, I'm doing fine, as I knew she was sick and she was 86 years old and lead a fulfilling life, so I'm really at peace with it. The funeral itself was tough, but besides that, this death hasn't been as hard as my grandfather's last year's. (This wasn't his wife who died..). Perhaps our relationships were different, perhaps now I know what it's like to lose a grandparent, perhaps I've grown up, perhaps I'm stronger emotionally. Who knows? Anyways, I know her memory will live on because she was a wonderful person. Rest in peace.

Monday, July 26, 2004

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 16:22:52 GMT

I had a great weekend. Friday night, I met up with Nicole & David for dinner. We went to Cucina de Pesce and I had a scrumptious chicken marsala dish. Then later that night, Nicole and I went to Melissa's 21st at Second Nature. Her parents rented out a room in the lounge and filled it with appetizers, carrots and dip, peanuts. Needless to say, I munched the whole evening and probably gained back the couple pounds I had dropped! (Oh well, I'll lose the weight when I get back to Colorado).

Saturday, we woke up and went to brunch, our favorite meal in the whole world! We went to this amazingly good cheapy place: Around The Clock. Eggs, toast, and hash browns for under 4 bucks. (I decided not to have a healthy weekend as I splurged the night before..so why not continue?!) Nicole and I went to the Met and had a really fun afternoon looking at the art. Nicole is like my museum partner anyways considering we went to a billion in Europe (or so it seems). We spent the afternoon gazing at Van Gogh and Degas and Monet masterpieces. Really cool to think that we've seen a lot of this work in museums in Paris, London, and Amsterdam. We rock.

Saturday night I went out with Matt and Su. We went to this place Jezebel for dinner. It's like REALLY nice, classy soul food. The decor is really funky, and all the waiters are these striking hot black men in tuxedos. They give out cornbread muffins instead of bread. I had grilled salmon (rather than BBQ) salmon with mashed potatoes and string beans. Besides the corn bread and the mashed potatoes, it was a healthy meal! Then we went to see Sly Flox, a show on Broadway starring Richard Dreyfuss. Elizabeth Berkeley (Jessie) from Saved BTBell was in it too. SOOO good! Then we went to this famous lounge on the Lower East Side called the Lansky Lounge. Meyer Lansky was a famous Jewish gangster who was big during Prohibition. We had drinks.

Sunday, I met up with Nicole and we went to see Little Shop of Horrors on Broadway. SO good, but I was SO sad that since it was a Sunday matinee Joey Fatone wasn't performing. However, the guy who was his understudy was amazing. All for now.

Friday, July 23, 2004

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 12:58:50 GMT

It's been awhile since I've updated, but it's been a really busy week (surprisingly), and it's flown by, and I haven't really had the chance to just sit here and type. So here we go.

Though the week has been busy, it's been fairly noneventful. Last night was Happy Hour with my co-workers. Shawn (the other intern) and I went and grabbed Chipotle first...since I've been on my diet (and I haven't had Chipotle in forever--over a year), I wasn't thrilled with his choice, but I gave in anyways and had a burrito bol and replaced the rice with lettuce, therefore reducing the whole thing by mucho calories bc of no tortilla or rice. I don't even know why I've missed Chipotle that much, because after I had it, I was just like eh. I'm done w. Chipotle forever. Now that's a huge declaration coming from someone who was once obsessed.

Then we went to Happy Hour at this bar called Mica and met our coworkers. For me, it's really odd to see people out of the context of work, in a social setting, drinking. It weirds me out. Plus I've been in a major alcohol funk, meaning I really haven't felt like having drinks in ages. I've had two drinks this entire summer, and I had maybe four/five drinks in Europe during my ENTIRE TIRP. I'm just taking a break, not really feeling it so much. But I hate having to explain that to people. Especially with coworkers. Yes, I have enough $. Yes, I'm of age. I'm full from dinner. I just don't feel like drinking. Why? Geez, I realize it's part of our social culture now, but I don't like drinking that much, and when I do like drinking, I like to get wasted with my friends, not you, the people I see every day in a cubicle!

Anyways, Shawn and I peaced early..I went shopping. Got the cutest shirt at Urban (5 bucks! I'm AMAZING!), and then went to the gym. Go me!

I have a wishlist going on, so I may need to go shopping w. Nicolio this weekend! We're going out to dinner w. Zach & David tonight, then to the bars for Melissa's 21st (Melissa went to London with us, she's Nicole's friend not mine, but it should still be good times). Saturday night my aunt and uncle are taking me out to a nice NYC night. I'm wearing my black Guess Collection cocktail dress and my new earrings from Ruthie! FUNN! Saturday and Sunday should be filled with NYC activities, so I'll let you know what I do.

8 days til Colorado! So weird! OHHH and I finally had contact with the MIA friend. He imed me. I'm still pissed at him for like ignoring me for two weeks, but at least it's improving slightly. Slightly.

P.S. I picked up the Ashlee CD on Tuesday. It's amazing, and I love her.

Monday, July 19, 2004

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 14:01:29 GMT

I had a great weekend. Friday night I went out with my uncle Matt. French Moroccan restaurant...upscale...theatre district. Marseille. I had marinated and sauteed striped bass with shittake mushrooms and spinach. Best fish I've had in my life. We split a salad. He took me to a Broadway show called "Caroline or Change," and then we went to Birdland Jazz cafe for a show and desserts. He had pie, I had blueberry crisp with vanilla ice cream. Amazing food night. Amazing night in general. I got home sooo late. We had a great time. It's so nice to do something other than just drink on a weekend. I feel a lot more classy and cultured.

Saturday I went to Washington Square Park. First I went to B&N and picked up a new book, "Sushi for Beginners" by Ms. Keyes. Walked through a street fair and planted my ass by the fountains, watched families with kids and dogs, read, and soaked up some sun. My legs got suchhhh color. I got really excited for the notion of being able to to this daily in 2 weeks. So ready for Colorado (after I finish seeing the things I want to see here!) I wish I could just not work these next 2 weeks and have free time and exploring time. I've already made a decent amount of $$ and have been saving it for the most part.

Sunday I went to Danal, an amazingly adorable brunch place with Matt. He pulls all the strings. Had an amazing scrambled eggs dish with fruit and potatoes. Gave him a GC to B&N to thank him. That night I met up with my Aunt Su at Silver Spurs for dinner. I had snacked terribly, so I just had a side salad. Then we went up to Matt's work to drop him off a burger. I got to see the amazing studio. He told me he got us tickets to a one-woman show a week from Wednesday. When they get back from their week-long business trip in LA, we may be going all out next Saturday night. Dress up style. I feel bad bc Nicole is visiting (not just me, but she'll be in the city), and I have all these commitments now. I can't not go to the dinner with my fam..aah I feel like an ass.

Let's see..I got a mani/pedi yesterday. My manicures always come off right afterwards, but it was a $25 special so I figured why not. Got a gorgeous hot pink on my toes obvi, got Ballet Slippers, the classic Jappy color on my nails that resembles a French, but isn't! Got a cute black skirt yesterday too.

Still really annoyed at my friend. Ran into him Thursday night..yet still no calls or IMs...Not giving in and iming him..If I have to wait until we're back at Syracuse again, so be it.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 18:58:40 GMT

I decided to take action because I was unhappy with things. And you have to be proactive for results.

I brought in bagels and cream cheese for all my coworkers this morning as a surprise, and it was SUCH a hit! I got so many "thank yous" and "how sweet" and "that was so thoughtful of you!" I really think it was the best idea. I think the other intern wish he had thought of it! Anyways, I've gotten a lot more assignments today and yesterday, and someone asked me if I would quit school and work for them full-time. I'm beginning to feel more appreciated. Even if it means going out and spending $20 to get a little recognition. I think it made an impact.

My other roomie is leaving this weekend, meaning it's me, myself, and I and this huuuge city. I promise to make it a worthwhile weekend though! I may do dinner and a sleepover w. Morgan tonight....hopefully a play with roomie Indrani next week, Happy Hour next Thursday, Nicole gets in next week..weird how the time is winding down.....and I'm leaving NY and I haven't even really seen some of my 'friends.'

I think my friend has gotten himself a little piece of ass on the side..which is perhaps why now he doesn't talk to me. What kind of friend is that? You find a girl so then you don't talk to me anymore? OMG, don't even get me started.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 14:26:50 GMT

Frustrations, frustrations, frustrations.

It was rainy yesterday, it's rainy today, and it looks like it's going to be rainy tomorrow as well. My mood is equally depressing and gloomy, and that is your warning. Don't read on if you don't feel like hearing my negative rambling.

I'm frustrated with my routine. It's so monotonous and similar. I get up at the same time, take the same train, do the same thing all day...I even eat the same things every day (at least for breakfast and lunch, often dinner too) at around the same time. I get home from work, I change, I unethusiastically force myself to hit the gym (which, btw, is having no influence on my bleeping body!!) I have dinner, I take a shower and wash and straighten my hair, I do some sort of activity (read, watch TV, explore..but I'm usually too tired for that) and then I go to bed. And it starts over.

The weekends are my salvation because there's a change of pace. That's when I get to explore the city and see things and enjoy different areas and foods and the NYC culture.

I am so so disappointed with my internship. My other internships were better because at least with the IJN, I was writing different types of news stories and I was going to different places in Denver. I came out with clips. I came out with experience. And I know they liked me a lot. Last year at Navigant, I got to write a lot, and I was working with Julie which was sooo great, and I felt like part of the corporate communications team. We would go out to eat together, go to movies during the afternoon when we completed special projects, I was psyched for the corporate picnics.

I wish I felt that connection here with my coworkers and with the actual job itself. I know only 14 more days of this isn't that many, but I'm just getting ridiculously fed up. It also makes me wonder if I can really tolerate sitting in an office for the rest of my life in a cubicle. I think it'd be different if I liked the setting and the work more (last year was a cubicle existence, and I was loving it)...but 14 days seems like an eternity at this point. AHHHHHHHHH.

I'm also really frustrated with a friend of mine. I'm never truly content with the situation between us, but we haven't talked in awhile, and just a simple phone call or an im to acknowledge my presence would be nice.

So frustrated with my job and my routine and some other aspects of life right now.

I'll end on a happy note: Excited because Morgan and I are going to have Morgan/Jennie bonding time some night this week, and I still need to call David Schwartz to meet up, and my friend Zach will hopefully be coming in for a gourmet dinner out in the Village or somewhere equally fun. (I just need fun people and fun activities like these to break up the pattern..I like New York City, I like my surroudings, I just don't like the day-to-day pattern. It's getting rather old as I reach my mid 7th week.)

Monday, July 12, 2004

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 13:00:13 GMT

What an incredible weekend. I love my family SOOOOOOOO much, but whenever they leave me, I feel like I'm coming off a drug addiction..I get all down and really sad and feel withdrawal symptoms. Haha..I thought it was a good analogy.

The highlights: Amazing food, for one. First night they got here we walked around the Village and then went to this amazing Greek restaurant called Gus's Place where I had grilled salmon. MMMM how I have missed fish. We did amazing brunches at this restaurant attached to their hotel...I think I could live on eggs and hashbrowns and whole-wheat toast. I really could. We met up with Rory who was in town on Sunday for lunch too...how fab!

Anyways, we did one of those bus tours. We chose the Downtown Loop. They drive around EVERYWHERE. We saw sooo much, and it was perfect because my grandmother's knees are bad, so we couldn't do that much walking anyways. Anyways, it was a great tour. We saw AIDA Saturday night with Deborah Cox as AIDA. OMG, it was incredible. And as we were leaving, we passed her signing autographs. She was right in front of us--pretty cool! We did some shopping as well. I got the most adorable pink shirt from Banana Repub (on sale for 9 bucks) and this halter top I've wanted forever..but it finally went on sale so M picked it up for me! I treated myself to two Michael Stars tees with my work $$..after all, I deserve it. Anyways, it was more just spending time with them....I'm SO SO SO sad they're gone!

In other sad news, my roomie who isn't on vacation gave her computer to some friends to store before she goes back to school. So basically since mine is broken and is being shipped back to Dell and hers is gone, we are without any form of computer until July 22nd when Angie returns from vacation. This is such a sad, sad thing...booo..I am going to be so cut off from the world. Oh well, I'll just be unprofessional and go on at work, but it sucks because nobody is on during the day and I want to talk about night stuff and make plans. Crap, it's ridiculous how much I depend on a computer.

Only 15 more working days at this internship. I haven't been loving it, because I haven't been challenged in any which way. I'm getting really bored, and I'm excited for it to end. We were supposed to have Happy Hour at some bar today, but the weather is bad and a lot of people are out, so we are rescheduling. Doesn't really bother me. I wasn't in the mood to sip overpriced drinks (which I wouldn't be doing because I'm steering clear of alcohol for awhile!)...so really I wasn't in the mood to sit with these people while they got drunk off overpriced drinks. Ughhh frustrations.

However, now I'm really beginning to like NYC a lot. It took me awhile to get used to it, and I was always making London comparisons, but now I'm settled and content with my lifestyle. I like where I'm living..I love the East Village and Union Square and Washington Square Park and I love the SOHO/Greenwich Village areas that are nearby. I think I'll be ready to go home though when it's time. Less than 3 weeks, and I need to do some museums and some more shows and see Uptown, because I haven't really gotten further than Midtown.

However, when I get home, I'm going to have 4 weeks, and my goal is very clear. Going to be ridiculously hardcore about it as well...